I’m Back

It feels like forever since I wrote on my blog! Dear Blog, I missed you! It has been a whirlwind of packing boxes, changing baby diapers, unloading boxes and more diapers.  Oh did I forget to add a working mommy and daddy= sheer exhaustion. But we made it, yes, we have survived.  Many thanks to Mom, Dad, Jen, Graham, Ashley and Andy. A special thanks to family and friends who provided encouragement during a hectic time.

I am back! We moved from a cozy home in Maitland to an even cozier condo in the heart of Winter Park, Florida. Some people thought we were nuts moving a baby and two dogs from a home to a condo.  And when the trains blared at 2 am, the first night of our stay in the condo; I began to question if they were right. But after lots of support, encouragement and self talk; I realized that people do get use to the sound of airplanes, trains, and many other obnoxious noises in the middle of the night.  We can too! It may take a while to adjust but it will happen.

For those of you who are new to my blog; I am writing about a new start.  Several blog posts ago, I wrote that I “Dived In” to a new lifestyle, new career, etc… Sometimes the best opportunities come when we just surrender to the unknown. I have decided to base my decisions purely from the heart.  Ofcourse I did not go into this decision blindly.  We have a plan and I am giving myself a few months to ask questions, gather information and soul search.  This plan of course starts with the new year.  Ready, set…..

Today

Yesterday I asked myself “How will I dive in?” In my recent blog post, I announced the start of a journey which will require 100 percent commitment to my singing, acting and writing.  I asked myself, “How will I do it?”  Then I began to hear the response “You just will.”  I began processing this question like a counselor would do.  There is no clear-cut solution and I cannot control the outcome.  As I have said to my clients in the past “Trust the process.”  But it is so HARD to do.  And then the little voice whispers “it doesn’t have to be hard, it’s as difficult as you allow it to be.”  Yet I believe I can make choices and use free will to increase my odds of going down the “right” path.  As I continued to ponder this question, I asked my husband who was sitting in the passenger seat of our car.  I said ” How will I swim once I dive in?”  His response intrigued me.  He said, “Just plug your nose when you dive in!”  I began giggling and contemplating his words.  Then he followed his first statement with “Stay in the shallow end.”   My gut reaction was to giggle and my thoughts were ” I want to jump into the deep end of the pool.”  Hmmmm…this is a metaphor and I believe its true meaning will reveal itself.  Until then, good night and talk to you later!

Oh yeah, I had an audition this morning for a Marriott Commercial.  It was pretty cool as I got to dress in workout attire and pretended to get ready for the gym during the audition.  Not so shabby!  You never know with these types of auditions are looking for, as there is so much typecast.  I was suppose to pass for a Caucasian/Hispanic female.  Grateful for the audition. The director said at the end “Thanks for being prepared!” I appreciated the feedback.  If its meant to be it will be.  I’ve learned not to be attached to the outcome.

Kimberly

DIVE IN

Have you ever wanted something so badly, in your life, that you would do just about anything to get it?  Well that is how I feel about singing, acting and writing.  This is my life’s passion, my life’s work.  I feel I have been following a calling to achieve these dreams since early childhood.  Life has had its ups and downs.  I have traveled in many exciting directions. But there is only one direction that continues to grab my attention.  That’s right, I am about to not walk, not run, not jump…to DIVE IN.

I recently resigned from a position as Licensed Mental Health Counselor.  I spent a few years growing as a therapist and supporting individuals and families with their life’s challenges.  It dawned on me after several life changing experiences; that there is no better time than the present, to pursue my dream full-time.  You see, I tried the 50/50 approach.  I wanted to do “all” of what I enjoyed.  I thought I could be a counselor, actor, singer, mom, wife all at the same time.  What I discovered is that this does not work for me.  Something had to give.  The most important role is being a mom, wife, friend and of course, a friend to myself.  I needed to practice better self-care.

I’d encourage my patients to practice better self-care and support them in pursuit of their highest good.  However, I found myself questioning if I had done the same.  Over the past few years, I have auditioned for commercials, sang for contests and submitted for roles. However, this was sporadic and time constrained.  And so with that being said, I am choosing a new direction.  It is time to DIVE IN!

From now on, this blog will chronicle my “diving in” to the unknown seas of the future.   What I do know for sure is that I have a clear vision.  What I don’t know is how this vision will come to fruition.  I am letting go of a desire to know the outcome, to control the situation because I realize I can only surrender to a higher plan.  Yes, it will be work on my part and I do believe in free will.  But when you are doing work you love; it’s not really work.  I realize that I will be doing a majority of the change making.

Buckle your seat belts, and come along for this journey I’m about to embark upon.  It will begin here in Winter Park, Florida.

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