Joy

“We simply cannot know joy without embracing vulnerability” by Brene Brown (author)

I adore this quote and the trick is to focus on gratitude and not fear.  I feel immense joy, when my attention is directed towards gratitude.  How about you?  How do you, or can you… show gratitude today and therefore begin feeling more joy in your life.

A short poem, if you will…

JOY

Capture me, take me

But do so knowing

That I am grateful

For you

JOY

Take me over

And know

That I am feeling

Opaque

But that is vulnerability

And this feeling is okay

And the more I am real

Showing Gratitude and living this life of love

The more JOY shows up.

I am present

This moment is vulnerability at its finest.

Only thinking in the moment

Being grateful for each step

And it will lead me back to you

JOY

Finally Free

Finally Free

I feel the weight fall off

It’s falling off me

My body is numb.

A heavy sigh grows

And I sigh again.

These eyes are aware,

Fully aware

Of this newfound freedom.

Freedom,

I am finally free.

I want to scream.

I want to shake,

Like a high voltage jolting

Me.

As a bird stirs from an

electrical line,

I am finally free.

This electricity radiates around the car.

I am aware of my surroundings

For a moment,

A single moment,

Nothing else matters.

With a long, deep breath

I hold onto this feeling.

Please… don’t leave me.

Stay with me.

I need you to be alive.

But then,

Just like that

Its is gone.

And the electricity fades

To a flat line.

But I am still free

I know I am.

My mind holds on.

Searching,

Searching,

I remember feeling free.

Searching…

My mind rests

And the heart takes over.

“Mind”, heart says

“You get in the way.”

Beat. Beat. Beat. Beat.

This heart pulsating…

I am free again

Finally free.

Refuel the Creativity

This is for you. The Artist.

Every artist needs fuel to keep the creative juices flowing.  There are many types of stressors and stress can creep up at random.  Stress in and of itself can be great fuel.  We need a certain amount of “good” stress to push us to our goals and to keep us on our feet.  Stress is a burst of energy that basically alerts you on what to do next.  There are advantages to stress when it exists in small doses.   It  can help you meet daily challenges and will motivate you to reach your goals.  However, there is the “bad” stress that builds and can become toxic to the mind, body and spirit.  As artists, we are especially vulnerable to stress because of our heightened sensitivity.  And when I say “sensitivity” I am referring to the ability of artists to tap into their own vulnerabilities and intuition.  This is why it’s so important to rest and rejuvenate in order to refuel the creative juices.

Why do I bring this up?  I bring this up because my energies are in higher demand due to an increase in scheduled activities.  As an actor, “gigs” are often at random and the duration/intensity vary of each job.  I began to think about energy and how important it is for me to take time to rest and refuel the energy.  I’m the type of person who wants to “go, go, go.”  I have always been the “restless girl” in my seat at school.  My head was in the clouds daydreaming.  But what I believe is this.  I have endless bounds of energy and visions of creating something bigger.  This I have known from a very early age.

I am finally able to allow myself to fully explore my visions of creating.  Yet I have learned from life experiences how to manage stressful situations and how to take care of myself along the way.  I’m very grateful to be refueling the creative juices this week, as I am away on vacation.  If you cannot take a vacation right now, can you take a mini-vacation?  Or perhaps you can take an hour to refuel.

Live. Love. Create.

Kimberly

Injustice

I am more than my words, more than my skin, more than my beliefs.

I am me.

I am more than what you know about me.

I am more than the lies you told yourself.

I am me.

You dared to tell me, what I can or cannot do.

Yet, you don’t know me.

I gave you a chance to see the real me.

I presented you with a gift

And helped you unwrap the gift.

Each ribbon unraveled and the paper crumpled.

It took time to consider,

Giving you this present.

You opened a package,

It’s called “vulnerability” .

This time around, the gift was expected.

And yet the gift was merely looked at

And wrapped up again.

Time and again,

You glanced at this gift called vulnerability

Without really seeing it.

I am more than the present.

I am me

I am more than your opinions and perceptions.

I am me.

You shook Vulnerability with all your might

For what reason? For what purpose?

I never imagined you would lose such sight.

I want the gift back but you have it now.

Yet, I still have vulnerabilities

And thus, I will re-gift to myself.

Yet you remain, as injustice does.

And I am me.

I am me.

Gratitude

The Magic has begun!  If you did not read my previous blog, allow me to bring you up to date.  I have been reading “The Magic” by Rhonda Byrnes.  It is truly inspiring me to do more, be more, share more.  I highly recommend this book, if you haven’t already figured that out. LOL.  Anyways, I miss writing to you; my invisible blogger and fans.

So here is the latest on my artistic journey, in case you are wondering.  I have been researching the top recording studios in Central Florida. So far I have narrowed my search to a select few.  This week I will be touring facilities and making a decision about where to record the latest song (a co-write).  Please stay tuned, as I will be posting this song.  Also, I am preparing for next open Mic night in College Park.  Although I am not a professional guitarist; I will be attempting to learn as many chords, and strum like crazy for the next two weeks in order to be ready for open Mic. I have vowed that if I do not feel confident in my amateur guitar skills; nothing will stop me from singing.  So, I will be singing Acapella.

“Come hell or high-water” (I think that is how the saying goes; I will continue to push forward with my singing/acting and entrepreneurship.  This journey has not been an easy one as I have been challenged by adversities.  However, it is the resilience, determination and passion which I truly feel will lead me in best direction and create success along the way.

It is the journey not the final destination that really matters after all.  I’m enjoying the small moments, the precious ones with our daughter Olivia and being grateful for this life.  I’m truly grateful for you, my invisible readers. Although I cannot see you;  I know you exist.  Thanks for your comments and feedback.

Be Well and Give Gratitude,

Kimberly

The Magic

I am reading this awe-inspiring book called ” The Magic” by Rhonda Byrnes. It from the series of books beginning with The Secret, then “The Power” and now “The Magic” regarding the Law of Attraction.  There is a paragraph at start of first chapter which truly captures the essence of “The Magic”.

It reads “I am here to tell you that the magic you once believed in is true, and it’s the disillusioned adult perspective of life that is false. The magic of life is real and it’s as real as you are.  In fact, life can be far more wondrous than you ever thought it was as a child, and more breathtaking, awe-inspiring, and exciting than anything you’ve seen before.  When you know what to do to bring forth the magic, you will live the life of your dreams.  Then, you will wonder how you ever could have given up in believing in the magic of life!”

The key discussed at the start of this book.  And I say “start” because I have just begun reading this book.  The key is one word: Gratitude.  Yes, many of us daily give thanks for “our bread”, friends, family and say thank you to the stranger who kindly opens the door.  However, the author challenges us to give an abundance of thanks with intention and regularly.  There is a 28 day journey to bring forth the magic into your life by gratitude detailed in the book.  The book also provides activities to increase gratitude.

So I want to say a big THANK YOU to Rhonda Byrne and the team that created this book “The Magic”.  Why?  Because the more I give; the more magical my life becomes.  As Willie Nelson (singer-songwriter) quotes ” When I started counting my blessings, my whole life turned around.”  I have been aware of gratitude and believe I am a grateful person.  However, I can be doing so much more to express gratitude and give back.

I hope that this blog inspires you, the reader, to continue your journey of attracting magic to your life.  Give, give, give!!!

With Appreciation,

Kimberly

Day 52 Changing it up!

Enough Elmo already!!  Okay don’t get me wrong, I enjoy watching my daughter’s face light up when she hears Elmo’s’ anthem at the start of Sesame Street.  However; lately she has been wanting more and more of Elmo on television.  I have been limiting the amount of time Olivia watches television in order to engage her other senses.  We tried to play with finger paint today.  But the minute Liv touched the paint, she began weeping.  She does not like getting dirty!  Mothers all around know that television can also be a saving grace.  It gives us much-needed time to cook a meal, prepare for school/work etc… However, I could not stand Elmo’s voice another minute today.  So what did I do?  I changed it up!!!  I walked our daughter to the library and showed her the children’s book section.  She got freaked out by the giant stuffed bears.  However, she loved watching other small children laughing and playing.  We danced like two crazy chickens to Shakira in the living room.  We laughed ourselves silly while rolling around on the floor and cheered every time a train passed by.  These are the moments I cherish!

And the day got progressively better after making the decision to change our routine.  I have been listening to the audiobook called ” Superbrain ”  by Deepak Chopra.  I mentioned this title in a previous post.  One of the concepts mentioned in this audiobook was the importance of mental activity daily.  We often exercise our bodies for physical health.  But we rarely focus on our mental health. One of the strategies suggested by the author is simple.  He said we should allow ourselves to diverge from the routine of every day.  We are not robots!!!  When we diverge from the routine, any routine for that matter; there are actual physical changes in the brain, which restores cells and promotes anti-aging; therefore increasing mental acuity.  This is why today I decided to change it up.  There are many days in which I “change it up.”  However, the difference is being mindful/purposeful/intentional in that change.

Overall it was a great day, no complaints.

Be Well and Goodnight,

Kimberly

Day 27

Day 26, I cannot complain. Today was a another beautiful day in Winter Park.  The sun was beaming yet it was crisp as the ocean breeze.  It was cool but not freezing.  Here are the highlights for today.

* My in-laws visited and spent the day with us. We really enjoyed spending time with them. Olivia practiced her spanish and called her grandmother (Abu) and her grandfather (Belo).  Well lets just say she tried to say “Belo” but it came out as “Bayo”.  Olivia enjoyed catching bubbles and cuddling with her new favorite toy doggy named “Roxy.”  Thanks Abu y Belo for a fun day!

* I managed to take a nap while Olivia slept. Well lets just say we all slept. That’s right. Abu, Belo, Art, Olivia and I all took a nap and at the same time. That is a rarity!

* A nap= a rested, happier mommy!

* I achieved one round of Lumosity.  Lumosity improves brain health and performance.

Check it out at http://www.lumosity.com/

* I posted on my blog! Day 27, you creeped up on me but I feel proud, that I am still writing, twenty-seven days later.  Woo Hoo!

* And lastly, my music goal today is to post one of my song ideas (lyrics only) for your feedback.  So here it is.  The song is entitled “On A Sunday” written/copyrighted 2008.  I left this song incomplete and recently worked on it.

On a Sunday

CHORUS: 

I wish that I’d wake up on a Sunday

And you’d be calling me

It could be about anything

But you’d only want to talk with me

Wouldn’t it be nice making time again

And we could reminisce

About how it all began

On a Sunday

VERSE:

And maybe you’d confide in me

Open the doors, allow me to see

The real you, like never before

Can you take the time?

There’s no need to push rewind

Just want us to start over

CHORUS: 

I wish that I’d wake up on a Sunday

And you’d be calling me

It could be about anything

But you’d only want to talk with me

Wouldn’t it be nice, making time again?

And we could reminisce

About how it all began

I wish that I’d wake up on a Sunday

VERSE

Don’t know who you are anymore

Miss the person I thought you were

Do I have to call to feel invited?

I feel the space that keeps us at bay

Do you really want to leave it this way?

CHORUS: 

I wish that I’d wake up on a Sunday

And you’d be calling me

It could be about anything

But you’d only want to talk with me

Wouldn’t it be nice, making time again?

We could reminisce

About how it all began

Day 4

It is time for bed and I am staying loyal to my promise of writing a blog each day for sixty days.  So my blogs will vary in content and please excuse a blog every now and then, which may not be fulfilling.  Today is one such blog.  Thursdays are my busiest days because I schedule most appointments, run errands and work as full-time mommy.  And on Thursday evenings I lead support groups for grieving adults.  Today was productive, and I truly enjoy running groups about grief and loss.  After leaving group, I feel truly blessed and fortunate to support and empower others, while also learning a great deal from families.  It is a very rewarding job.

That is the part of my day I truly enjoyed.  The part I did not was the hour and half wait at doctor’s appointment today.  The longest I have ever waited for a doctor’s appointment was two hours and 15 minutes.  This was close.  But I was very grateful to my Aunt who watched my daughter while I attended the appointment.  She was understanding when I speed texted “I may be late, doctor is late. Is that okay?”  To which my Aunt responded, “Take your time. Even go shopping if you want to.”  I then sighed and texted, “I wish, but I am here waiting.” Today was a test in patience.

At the end of the day, I am thankful for another day with purpose, love and support.  I am grateful for this blog.  And I am excited about the journey ahead, a leap of faith.  Day 4 is pretty darn good!  And to that sentiment, good night, as I am one very tired mommy at the end of an “on the go” day.

Be Well,

Kimberly

Day 3

What a beautiful day in Winter Park it is, minus the overcast skies.  Here is a picture of Park Avenue this morning.

Park Avenue

This week is all about organization. So after walking my daughter to school this morning, I began reviewing my “to-do” list.  Where to begin, I wondered.  I looked around at our condo, which has been seriously “babyfide”.  This is my new word for “the baby has taken over.”  Its all good though, because it reminds me of just how much fun she is having.  After vacuuming, sweeping, organizing and de-cluttering; it was like a new condo.  Then I realized the tedious, boring nature of cleaning up, so I put on my favorite songs from lists saved on iTunes.  Music rejuvenated me and I continued to organize.  Two quotes popped out at me from paperwork I was sorting through.  These were quotes I wrote down from awhile back.  I thought I’d share them with you today.

Quote 1:

“To be surprised, to wonder, is to begin to understand.” Jose Ortega and Gasset

Quote 2:

“You must do the thing you think you cannot do.”  Eleanor Roosevelt

Quote 3:

“If anything can go well, it will.” Unknown author

Wishing you a beautiful day! Listen to your heart, and trust in your own connection to you.

Be Well, Kimberly

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