22 Apr 2013
in blogger, co writing, gratitude, healing, Life, lyrics, music, psychology, Singing, spirituality, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: Blogger, chords, college park, confidence, fans, grateful, gratitude, guitar, inspiration, love, magic, mindfulness, open mic, quotes, rhonda byrne, Songwriter, songwriting, spirituality, success, Writing
The Magic has begun! If you did not read my previous blog, allow me to bring you up to date. I have been reading “The Magic” by Rhonda Byrnes. It is truly inspiring me to do more, be more, share more. I highly recommend this book, if you haven’t already figured that out. LOL. Anyways, I miss writing to you; my invisible blogger and fans.
So here is the latest on my artistic journey, in case you are wondering. I have been researching the top recording studios in Central Florida. So far I have narrowed my search to a select few. This week I will be touring facilities and making a decision about where to record the latest song (a co-write). Please stay tuned, as I will be posting this song. Also, I am preparing for next open Mic night in College Park. Although I am not a professional guitarist; I will be attempting to learn as many chords, and strum like crazy for the next two weeks in order to be ready for open Mic. I have vowed that if I do not feel confident in my amateur guitar skills; nothing will stop me from singing. So, I will be singing Acapella.
“Come hell or high-water” (I think that is how the saying goes; I will continue to push forward with my singing/acting and entrepreneurship. This journey has not been an easy one as I have been challenged by adversities. However, it is the resilience, determination and passion which I truly feel will lead me in best direction and create success along the way.
It is the journey not the final destination that really matters after all. I’m enjoying the small moments, the precious ones with our daughter Olivia and being grateful for this life. I’m truly grateful for you, my invisible readers. Although I cannot see you; I know you exist. Thanks for your comments and feedback.
Be Well and Give Gratitude,
19 Jan 2013
in Baby, career, child, Florida, gratitude, healing, Life, Mother, Orlando, Parenting, Singing, spirituality, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: actor, artist, family, joy, life, mindfulness, motherhood, Music, Singer, songwriting, spirituality, wellness, writer
Today is Day 11, my lucky number !!! What follows is a synopsis of my day. Our sweet baby girl has been under the weather since Wednesday evening. So mommy and daddy have been busy taking good care of her. Today I took Liv to our first appointment with a new pediatrician who is an MD but also skilled in Alternative Medicine. It is such a relief to find a pediatrician who believes in empowering families through prevention, education and support.
I visited my favorite business for skin care this evening. It is called The Sanctuary of Winter Park. The owner/founder is Usha Naran who is also a friend of mine. She is such a professional, kind and genuine individual. I admire her as a specialist in skin care and as a person. She specializes in facials, waxing and make up. Also there is a wonderful lady there named Maria who is very talented and is also a friend of mine. Maria provides many services including waxing and pedicure/manicure. I see Maria for eye brow waxing and always leave happy! Check out this peaceful Sanctuary that is well-known for skin care in Winter Park.
I could go on and on about my day, but don’t want to bore you today. First and foremost, today was about taking care of our bambina (spanish for “baby girl”). We also ran a few errands together. The process of organizing, decluttering and unpacking is taking longer than anticipated. Olivia keeps me laughing when life can be so serious.
I am beginning to truly miss lyric writing, acting, singing and dancing. Mostly I miss singing, and acting. I have the acting bug again! So I am hopeful that next week will be the last week of serious organization mode; so I can concentrate on acting/music again. I sing and write now but not to the extent of my soul’s purpose. There are many changes being made on a personal and professional note; which are preparing me for this next phase.
08 Jan 2013
in Baby, blogger, career, child, gratitude, healing, inspiration, Life, Orlando, Parenting, psychology, spirituality, therapy, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: artist, counseling, family, healing, health, life, motherhood, spirituality, writer, Writing
Today felt like day one of a life transition. As I have mentioned in previous blogs, my family and I moved from a home to a condo. The condo is located in my hometown, a city with serious charm: Winter Park, Florida. I feel in some ways I am being reborn. Not only did we move physically but there is something bigger going on here, for which time will reveal. I have moved literally to a new home but I am also in process of an emotional (mind-body-spirit) journey to capture my inner child, my inner strength.
I know what I need to do career wise. So now I am developing an action plan, checking one item at a time off the list. And now I am even more aware of the importance of relaxation, and being open to “no plan.” Sometimes the greatest joys come from “going with the flow, and trusting in the signs.” Also a visionary has no vision without rest and recuperation. Isn’t there a quote that says “Life is what happens when you are not watching.”?
Although weeks have passed since our actual move; we did not feel settled into our new place. There were many, many boxes to unpack, discard, etc… And we still have a room full of stuff, mostly paperwork to review and discard. Last night, was the first night our family (mommy, daddy, baby and two dogs) slept through the entire night. WOO HOO! My energy felt bountiful this morning as if I was being energized by Red Bull. The irony is that I have never drank a Red Bull nor do I have a desire to do so. This morning I was eager to do loads of laundry. That is not my usual. Olivia and I played in the park, danced to music, ate a popsicle together, and enjoyed giggling. It seems she is becoming more independent as I found time to check items off my to-do list. It was a productive and happy day.
Did I mention that I watched GLEE? I am inspired by most episodes of Glee. My daughter dances to the music and I continue to muster up creative ideas that swarm in my head. Who knew that Liv would dance to Britney Spears songs on GLEE? I took time out tonight to write and to reflect upon meaningful lyrics. It is very important to me to say what I really want/need to say in my songwriting. I vow to write lyrics, without fear of others perception of my lyrics. The lyrics will be truthful and heartfelt. I think many singers/songwriters sugar coat the writing in order to not offend others. That was my mistake as well. I wrote many lyrics that only scratched at the surface of my real feelings. It is time to really say I what I feel.
03 Jan 2013
in blogger, career, healing, inspiration, Life, Mother, Orlando, psychology, spirituality, therapy, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: artist, family, health, joy, life, mindfulness, motherhood, peace, simplicity, spirituality, writer, Writing
It has been several weeks of packing, moving and unpacking, reloading…you get the picture. We just moved from a home to a condo. Some would say we are nuts. Others have said we are smart. I say we are happy. The packing and unloading part is a big pain; however, it is also cleansing. I write this post today about simplicity. It is euphoric to de-clutter our new living space. So I thought I’d google the word “Simplicity”. The definition online reads “the state or quality of being simple. Something which is easy to understand or explain is simple, in contrast to something complicated.” A life of simplicity would be less complicated.
Thus, I have begun asking myself questions about how I may simplify this life. The questions include, “Do I really need belts of all kinds? Do I really need another pair of jeans? Do I really want to store shirts I may end up wearing one day?” “Is it important to keep different kitchen appliances, in the event that I may throw a party?” “Do I really need to say yes again to another invite?” The answer to all of these questions is “NO!”
But when I reflected upon these questions further; I realize that I am materialistic to some degree. And what is wrong with having nice things? Nothing. But it is the quality not the quantity that matters. And do I really need to say yes to every invitation, event, idea etc. The answer again is “NO!” A simple life is not just about de-cluttering materials. It is also about wellness and “de cluttering one’s emotions.” It is time to clear the energy in my life to only positive and to get rid of stuff that is not needed. So I created several piles. Each pile has a specific destination which includes “Donations”, “Re Sell” and “Store.” Also I gave a few select items to individuals that came to mind.
It feels like a weight is lifting from my shoulders. There is increased happiness, good energy and freedom. The clearing of things from my life will only open up doors on my quest to shift into a new career and for inner peace.
20 Oct 2012
in blogger, healing, inspiration, Life, Mother, psychology, spirituality, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: artist, counseling, healing, health, inspiration, joy, mindfulness, motherhood, spirituality, Writing
It dawned on me the other day that I am now being more mindful. I’d often say “When this happens…then I will be able to…” How often do you find yourself saying the same thing? One day when I find _____ then I will find success. As if success follows us. Really it is the opposite way around. We need to bring success to us. There is unlimited potential in all of us. The reason we feel stuck or blocked is because of messages we hear which do not serve us well. It is our job to change the way we perceive these messages and/or to filter out the ones that do not support our truth.
If your dream seems distant, why is that? What can you do to bring your dream/vision to YOU? If you are an artist who loves to paint but feel there is no place for your work. Or a mother who wants desperately to pursue a career from a hobby. What is holding you back? Sometimes it takes looking at the big picture and then breaking down the larger goal, into clear concrete ones. And maybe instead of looking, you need to surrender.
I have learned that surrendering, rather than trying to control the path of life is key. To surrender is to give over or resign (oneself) to something, as to an emotion. For example, someone who is grieving loss of a loved one; surrenders oneself to grief process. So what if you surrendered yourself to faith and belief. If we push too hard, it leaves little room for reflection and play. Personally, I have found that when I surrender; the answers come more naturally. I also feel it takes faith in yourself and in something greater than yourself. But most importantly there needs to be conviction that no matter what people think about you, or what beliefs you have absorbed from others as your own; the fact remains that this dream is your love, your passion, your life. No one can take that from you!
There is a quote from the book “The Power” by Rhonda Byrne ” As your faith is strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to have a sense of control, that things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them, to your great delight and benefit.” (Wingate Paine, Author and Photographer)
Love is at the heart of it all. If there is an opportunity somewhere, and it feels right; you can find a way to make it work! If it does not feel right, do not! Trust in the gut! And thus, I will leave you with another quote. Can you tell I am a fan of inspirational quotations?
“Live today. Not yesterday. Not tomorrow. Just today. Inhabit your moments. Don’t rent them out to tomorrow.”
Jerry Spinelli, Children’s Author
17 Oct 2012
in Baby, blogger, child, Coffee, Life, Mother, Orlando, Parenting, psychology, spirituality, therapy, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: artist, baby, dream, elderly, family, friendship, gratitude, healing, health, kindness, library, maitland, mindfulness, motherhood, multitasking, spirituality
Sometimes all it takes is a stranger saying a compliment or taking the time to care. My thought for today is go out tomorrow and do something for someone else. It can be as simple as a thank you card in the mail, just because. Or as grand as taking over someone’s responsibilities for a day. Whatever your choice, be sure to do so with love. Today was one of those really busy days as I am balancing two jobs being a mommy to a 13 month old and working as a counselor. Of course throw in all the other responsibilities and titles and it can feel like I have ten jobs. I love it all even when I am so exhausted that I struggle to recall what day/time of the week it is. Yikes! And each day is different and filled with surprise. At least my days are not boring!
So as I was saying…the day began in a frenzied mode prepping baby food, juggling work load and attending appointments. In the back of our SUV, I had a laundry basket full of books to donate. Originally my thought was to sell them. However, I wanted to do a good deed today. So between my afternoon appointment and scheduled work commitment; I went over to our local book store and donated about 15 books. As I was getting out of the car, I asked a passerby if she wanted first dibs. Ironically she was looking for travel theme books. So she gladly took the two travel theme books from my basket. It felt good to see this stranger smile. I could go on and on but I won’t.
Long story, short, the librarian was also happy. While at this store, I ran into an elderly woman named “Wanita”. I chose to walk up to her and re introduce myself. You see, I ran into her months ago at Michael’s Craft Store with my daughter in tow. Wanita is a very kind, genuine lady who divulged her life story involving Norfolk, Virgina to me, upon our initial meeting at Michael’s. Wanita appeared to not recognize me or our prior conversation. But Wanita jumped right in updating me on her two grown children. I told her that I valued the love story she had shared with me once before. This story was about how she and her husband met. Wanita smiled and began sharing the story again. I felt that she enjoyed talking and wanted to continue, so I invited her to the lobby. Plus the library is for being quiet and she was anything but quiet. We spent some time together and later, as I was checking out books; I helped her find a book on knitting.
That was the best trip I have ever had to the library! Please do something for someone else tomorrow, and the next day and the day after. Make a difference in someone else’s day. It is positive energy to spread around! Also, you leave feeling like you gained more than the person you gave to. This sweet lady gave me so much joy!
14 Oct 2012
in Baby, blogger, Coffee, healing, Life, lyrics, Mother, nashville, new age, numbers, Orlando, Parenting, phenomena, psychology, Singing, spirituality, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: artist, bluebird, Coffee, dream, family, health, law of attraction, lyrics, mindfulness, motherhood, multitasking, Music, Nashville, new artist, Singer, Singing, songs, Songwriter, songwriting, spirit, spirituality, the power, the secret, the voice, writer, Writing
I am reading a book called “The Secret the Power” by Rhonda Byrne. This is not just a book, it is so much more. It may feel like a book, look like a book, read like a book; but its impact is far greater than a tangible, physical thing. There is a quote by Albert Einstein ” The distinction between past, present and future is only a stubbornly persistent illusion.” Basically time is an illusion according to Einstein. We often race through our day to-day, feeling a need to fight against a limited amount of time. You may hear yourself say ” I have to hurry and do the dishes” or ” I’m getting older, so better rush and follow my life’s purpose.” But the truth is if you see the world as illusion, then we escape suffering. And creativity has no limit, no time, no end. One of the coolest things I read was about the sky. We look up and around us to view a blue haze and blue sky. Yet, the color you see is in fact not its real color. The “blue” sky is actually all colors, reflected back at us. If that doesn’t make you think, what will? It sure makes me think.
Abraham Lincoln wrote ” To believe the things we can see and touch is no belief at all; but to believe in the unseen is a triumph and a blessing.” I have faith in my dream that one day it will come into full bloom. I believe in imagination, creativity and passion. Have you ever just stopped and watched a child play? There is nothing like it. When our daughter Olivia dances in front of the mirror or gives that “all-knowing” glance; I feel immense joy. She truly is a genuine soul, unscathed by society or negative influence. She is a reflection of love and radiates with love. This is what “The Secret the Power” is all about.
Yesterday I was driving along, not looking for signs. However, the night before I called upon my angels and requested for them to show me signs, that I am following the correct path. As I was driving to Whole Foods, a taxi cab darted out in front of me and showed “422-2222″. As many of you have read my previous blogs, I have a fascination with numerology and the appearance of numbers in sequence. I often see the number 4 and 2 repeated. I saw this same cab a week ago. This experience validated that I am on the right path.
Yesterday I also came up with an idea. Ideas come to me like lightning bolts and at lightening speed. I use to brush them off and actually criticize myself for having so many random thoughts. But now I see it as a gift and I write down all of my concepts. Oftentimes, I tell myself that who knows, one day, an idea will stick. Yesterday was that day. I couldn’t stop thinking about a new vision. And the universe was showing me signs pushing me to further expand upon this vision. It all has to do with a special bird known as “Bluebird”.
As a child, my fascination with bluebirds grew in Elementary School. Oftentimes, I would watch the bluebirds flying around the picnic tables. One day, one weekend a bluebird nearly hit me in the face, as it sweeped past me with fury. I was riding my bike as usual in neighborhood, only this time the bluebird almost stopped me in my tracks. Fast forward to Nashville, TN. and many years later.
Have you ever heard about the famous Bluebird Cafe? I was drawn to it, not only because of its history with famous singer/songwriters; but because of my fascination with bluebirds. My husband and I enjoyed an evening at the Bluebird Cafe. It was quite magical listening to professional singers and eating lasagna (my favorite). Now, I wear a crystal bluebird around my neck in honor of our unspoken connection. Yesterday, this vision began to bloom thanks to bluebirds and a strong desire to further my passion for music. Apparently a bluebird is symbolic for happiness and good fortune according to the internet. This new vision will remain a mystery to the reader until further transformation. Thanks for reading and listening.
“Fly Free”!!! (as my friend M’Liss says to me)
12 Oct 2012
in ballads, blogger, Florida, healing, Life, lyrics, Mother, nashville, new age, Orlando, psychology, spirituality, therapy, uptempo, Winter Park, Writing
Tags: artist, bluebird, counseling, dream, friendship, grief, healing, joy, loss, lyrics, mindfulness, mom, motherhood, Music, Nashville, new artist, Singer, Singing, songs, Songwriter, spirit, spirituality, writer, Writing
I began writing this song in 2009 and am now finalizing the lyrics. I’m the type of songwriter that tends to write the sappy love songs and the moody ballads. It comes naturally! But I promised myself one of these days I will write an uptempo song. For now, I want to share with the world a new song called “Manipulator” which will be a mildly uptempo yet moody song. The artist Evanescence was in mind, in writing this song. The melody and arrangement are not complete but the lyrics are just about there. It feels good to release this song to the web. I will let the lyrics speak for themselves. So thankful that I can now look back at a very painful time with understanding and love. Sometimes the sweetest revenge is none at all. Just releasing feelings with lyric writing is what it takes. Can you tell I am also a counselor?
I was the scapegoat in your projection of lies
You thought I’d look like the jerk
So you were bigger in their eyes
You finally felt the love that I once knew
Because you took my heart and ripped it in two
What you thought you had was temporary,
But I was always there for you…
That’s why I can say
You are a selfish manipulator
How did I turn my hate from anger to happiness?
I know I don’t deserve the mess you left
And you no longer have power over me
Because I’ve released your grip
It was only strong as I let it be
You were the victim, of your deceitful games
It became clearer to me
You had a pattern of blame and shame
After all the time we shared, you don’t have a clue
But I’ll never look back and wish to be friends with you
Like your fake smile when you passed the hallway
But I never really knew the real you
But this is true
You are a selfish manipulator
How did I turn my hate from anger to happiness?
I know I didn’t deserve the mess you left
And you no longer have power over me
Because I’ve released your grip
It was only strong if I let it be
There were empty apologies
When I spoke the truth, there was disbelief
Afraid to love, you ran away and couldn’t see
That I was really there to stay
27 Sep 2012
in Life, Mother, new age, numbers, phenomena, psychology, spirituality, Writing
Tags: age, artist, dream, family, healing, health, joy, math, mindfulness, moon, religion, Songwriter, spirituality, writer
The ironic thing is that this is my 44th post. Well, if you have been tuned in to my previous posts, you would know why I feel this way. But for those of you, who are new reader; I have been seeing the number “44” for about a year now. On my 44th post, I want to share something special that happened today. (Names/ Locations will not be disclosed to protect individuals privacy).
This afternoon I went to visit a friend at her office. While laying down in a comfortable seat, chatting with my friend; I noticed a cross on the ceiling. As I looked closer, I realized that this cross was not a structure on the air vent; it was created by the air vent. I have added a photo for viewers to see. My friend said ” It is a sign for you.” To which, I then responded; I think its a sign for you, since this is your office!” We looked at each other laughing and in amazement. It really was a sign for both of us.
What to make of this? All I can say is that I must be on the right path or doing something right. I think that’s what the signs are generally saying to me, if they could speak. Yet, is there a more specific message here? If you look closer at the photo, you can even see a halo of light.
Discovered on Sept 26, 2012
25 Sep 2012
in Life, psychology, Writing
Tags: angel number, angels, artist, dream, healing, health, joy, mindfulness, mother, motherhood, mystery, Singing, spirit, spirituality, wellness
What is it about the number 44? I have been seeing this number for about a year now. Forty-Four will appear in all forms to me, whether by clock, t-shirt, lotto number, assigned seating at weddings. I believe there must be a significance. This weekend my husband and I were on a family outing in Mt. Dora and began a conversation with a realtor. Next thing you know, a gentleman smiles at Olivia, our daughter and waves his large plastic cup. It was not just any large cup; it read the number 44 on it, in large font. My mouth dropped and I couldn’t help myself. I yelled out “Number 44!” My husband looked at me like I was ridiculous and then calmly said to the man “She has this thing with the number 44.” I relayed this story to my mom who informed me that the number 44 was a racecar driver’s number. Thanks mom! Yes, true but the fact that I am seeing the number Forty-Four repeatedly this past year intrigues me. Prior to the birth of Olivia; I was seeing the number 911 often. Funny enough, she was born September of 2011. I also often see the number 22, and for those smarty pants out there…what is 44 divided by 2? That’s right 22!
So what does all this mean? I believe these numbers are from my angels, encouraging me along this journey in life. I also feel they are validating that I am making the necessary changes in my life and trusting in those decisions. These signs in the form of numbers, are here for a reason. So I became Dr. Google, yet again and began to research the meaning of these numbers. A lady named Joanne Sacred Scribes discusses the significance of what she terms angel numbers online. The following are excerpts from her blog.
“Angel Number 44 asks that you pay attention to your intuition and inner-wisdom as your connection with your angels and the angelic realm is very strong at this time. You are encouraged to continue on your current path as your drive and determination will lead to success and fulfilment.”
“Angel Number 22 can turn the most ambitious of dreams into reality. The repeating Angel Number 22 asks you to see the larger picture, and to work with the details necessary to complete that picture. Angel Number 22 encourages you to bring things through to fruition on both the spiritual and material planes.”
Does anyone else have this experience? What numbers do you see and how can they guide you in your life right now?